Everything we do is self-conscious, whether we believe it or not. Some things feel less so when we interact with others or things, displace the self into said thing(s), which removes how close you are to the self.
That's how I feel about blogger and tumblr. I don't get the same fulfillment of posting pictures when I have personally taken them whether they are of myself, landscape or what have you, rather, I feel more adequately expressed when I use others'. It seems they, whoever they are, are able to capture better what I feel or want to express than anything I could ever take. I feel foolish otherwise taking something I feel is beautiful with my own camera, especially when I don't feel trained to do so.
This is exactly why I feel better when removed.
I feel when you put yourself on the out there by taking photos, drawing pictures etc, showing your outfit, it becomes way too personal. It gets too close to the self. And I can't handle it. It becomes self-conscious, and I stray away from that. I don't like it. It's not me.
It's why I don't like academics; it's why I am pursuing other endeavors.
But, I know I can't evade this feeling. I will always analyze.
Something has to change.
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